the crone

opening the door to ideas

Sir Nicholas Winton died this week.

If you want to know who he was and what he did, read a bit about him at The Power of Good.

He rescued around 669 children from the Nazi death camps. It was only when his attic was being cleared that the story of what he had done became known.

Now I’m sitting here in my safe(ish) European home wondering what difference I could make to the world today.

I give to charity and support the arts when I can.

But I wish I could do so much more.

Save save save

I’ve worked with charity clients over the years, and a brief sometimes talks about ‘compassion fatigue’.

The donor sees starving children, earthquake victims, disaster survivors. Endangered leopards, elephants, whales. Orphaned migrants, disease sufferers, campaigns for cancer cures.

‘Compassion fatigue’ inoculates the brain against the constant barrage of horror and despair.

‘You can’t help everyone’, we might say to ourselves.

We feel weak. Powerless.

And we have to look away.

To try and cut through this I wrote some fund raising packs which put a price on items for donors:

e.g. Just £1 can buy life-saving rehydration treatment for a child – £10 can buy an emergency ration pack for a family – £20 can buy a sleeping bag and warm clothing for a displaced orphan

This worked well when writing for humanitarian aid; similar targeted ‘price tag’ donations also helped raise funds for worldwide animal charities.

People are so generous, many actually opted to give a higher value gift, because the price seemed so low and the benefit so high.

Save only one

What worked even better was when we stopped talking about saving 1000s of lives.

Of helping ‘1000s of children’.

Our brains can’t envision that many children.

We can’t see how we (little old ‘me’) can possibly save that many children.

We aren’t all heroes like Mr Winton.

Most of us can’t just drop everything and get on a plane and plan a mass evacuation, or airlift into a jungle to set up an emergency hospital.

We’ve got work, for one thing. And our own families to care for.

Yet still, some of us feel at the back of our minds that we do want to DO something.

Something tangible.

To make a difference that could help make sense of our time in this world.

So, instead of writing about saving 1000s of children, I wrote about saving just one.

Because that seemed possible.

Human kind

I imagined it like this.

If I was eating with my family and a hungry child was at the table, I would without doubt make sure I put a piece of bread or fruit onto his or her plate.

I could really imagine doing that.

I would be directly helping that visible child, at that moment.

I could also imagine how I might stretch out a family meal so I could feed an extra child.

I could stretch my imagination further, and think about offering that ragged, frightened child the chance of clean, warm clothes and a safe, dry place to sleep.

And know I’d made a real difference to at least one person who needed help.

Just one.

Us humans can be the most wonderful humanitarians, given the chance.

Here’s an amazing clip when Sir Nicholas Winton realised the difference he’d made to the world. (Tissues ready).

*** STOP PRESS *** The erudite Rory Sutherland has just blogged about giving to charity, and it’s related to what I was trying to say (although he’s done a much better job than I ever could).   Giving to people without a charity go-between

See this article?

Android Dreams

Images created by computer algorithms.

Eerily beautiful.

Vision

A Knight is seen

Haunting landscapes.

been here before...?

Take a trippy to dream city

Arty, aren’t they?

You can watch a short neural network in action (or close enough) at Google’s blog, and see how a computer brain happily turns clouds into magical sky cities.

“… I’ve seen things you people wouldn’t believe. Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion. I watched c-beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhäuser Gate. All those moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain. Time to die.”

replicant

Time to die…

Sometimes I cook fancy things.

I chop. I peel. I cut.

I knead. I slice. I season.

I go on long convoluted shopping trips in order to track down 60 separate secret ingredients for Sambal, Bun Bo Xao and Garam Masala.

But fussy people do not want this.

They demand Macaroni Cheese.

They care not for my hours spent slaving over books and spices, the succulent marinaded meats and the more-ish mezzes.

They want only the greatest dinner known to man or child.

The fabled Orange Dinner

Fishfingers.

Orange dinner

Orange dinner

Waffles.

plastic potato

Waffley nice

Baked Beans.

bean and gone

Beans means none of that fancy food please

I feel such a failure as I grumpily serve the Orange Dinner.

I see the overly bright, processed, pre-packaged meal as an admission of failure to please.

But their happy grinning faces as the plates appear makes me see I am succeeding to please.

I wonder what Chef Ramsey would say if this happened to him?

Don't make the chef angry

Don’t make the chef angry

So Virgin are offering these ‘punk’ credit cards.

bollocks

Never Mind The Irony …

Anarchy?

I own you. Don’t forget.

Oh the wonderful irony of it! Did the marketing/brand team really believe people would think, ‘Hey! I’m such a rebel! No-one owns me!’

… As they take out their credit card to fund their plastic life and remain in debt to the wealthy bankers who are laughing down their Hugo Boss sleeves. Probably.

It’s almost like a great rock n roll swindle.

sex pistols

Anarchy?

I got a call (well, a tweet) from an ex-colleague on Monday, offering me the chance of a few days work at a large ad agency in London. As I’m not that busy with my own business, I thought ‘Why not?’ I’d give it a go.

Just a few days writing.

A few days freelance.

Getting down with the creatives at a cool, trendy ad agency seething with young, slim, young, gorgeous, young ad folk. who are young.

dinos

I’M BAAAA-AAACK!

Did I mention they would be young?

Strange how some things change, and some things stay the same. I last worked in a London agency back in 1991… 14 long, eventful years ago.

I remember how I coolly disregarded the Old Writers huddled in the corners tapping away. My vision was blinkered, back then. I felt they weren’t relevant to the place.

Now it’s my turn to be on the other side of the ageing old coin.

As I sat there amongst all the lovely young people, I realised two things…

1. Astonishingly, it looked like I was the only female creative.

Still, after all these years, art directors and copywriters work in a male dominated environment. (Another female writer did appear later.)

2. I was quite easily the oldest person in the creative department (aged 47).

It took some guts to travel into London to work again amongst young creatives.

To carry on as one of them, when I can tell by their looks I am now one of THEM (oldies).

The young creatives aren’t unfriendly or cold. They’re certainly not bitchy or rude. It’s just … they are on one side of life, and I am on the other.

I am banter proofed.

A nice cup of copy, and a good sit down

The upside is, my age makes me almost completely invisible to everyone. Which is actually rather relaxing.

I can just get on with my work, without having to impress anyone with my witty one-liners, trendy fashions and slim thighs.

Which is just as well, really.

cracked

Old crock

Now I’ve moved house, I’m trying to get back on track with my health and fitness.
(Mmmm, just seeing the word ‘track’ makes me think of a delicious nutty treat…)

nutty

Nutty but on track

I don’t need it. I think I am obsessed with food.

 

Having a wobble

 

So my week pans (…mmm crispy fried bacon) out like this:

Game of Thrones = crisps and wine
Football match = sofa snacks and cider
Poldark = cheese and red wine

cheesy TV

Got any more of that Bavarian smoked luvva?

 

Filling the emptiness

Boredom. That’s maybe my major problem.
I used to live in London and was never bored. I had a fulfilling job at an ad agency, gym and swim membership, theatres, clubs, cinemas, live music, and friends.

My life was full, and my stomach was the right kind of empty.

Now I live in semi-rural Surrey my life had slimmed down to a few streets and my jeans have expanded.

Must take back control.

 

My blog has been sadly neglected. Poor little bloggy.

Moved house. Moving on.

Saying goodbye to some things.

It was quite cleansing to unburden myself. Going through piles of papers. Throwing out crumpled cartoons, wrinkled pages of writing, years and years worth of diaries.

It’s like taking a weight off the mind or soul.

I mean, if you haven’t looked at something you wrote nearly 30 years ago, it’s unlikely you’re going to go back and finish it? Is it?

And if there was a germ of an idea there, surely it will still grow? Do we need to carry around the hard copies to remember?

So tired of the scraps and scribbles I’ve carried around from house to house.

It’s time to look forward.

However. I did keep this, from around 25 years ago.

It made my family laugh. So I’ll share it with you.

catty

Cat and mouse

The election is looming large in the UK right now.

Why they gave us women the vote I’ll never know. Bit shocked to see how much of my brain is devoted to hats and chocolate.

Ooh a HAT!

A woman’s brain is not made for voting